I almost gave up running. My last half marathon was the Diva Half Marathon in October of 2012. During my run I had some stomach pains and some trouble breathing. Later that week I found out that I was having the stomach pains because I was 10 weeks pregnant. At the first ultrasound appointment I received the devastating news that I was having an ectopic pregnancy and would need to terminate the pregnancy.
The following Sunday I was scheduled to run the Atlantic City Half Marathon, however I was in the emergency room having an emergency laparoscopic surgery to terminate the pregnancy. Afterwards, I was depressed but I was ashamed to show it to my family or friends. Then Hurricane Sandy affected us and I felt guilty for being depressed about my unborn child while some families lost their homes, possessions, and their lives.
Last year I stopped running races, I would pay registration fees but chicken out at the last minute. I was scared to run alone, in fear of thinking about those moments. Last October, I organized a pregnancy loss walk across the Brooklyn Bridge and hearing the stories of other mothers inspired me to get back into running. I entered the lottery to run the New York City Half Marathon and surprisingly I was selected to run. I began to train hard not only physically but mentally.